November 9, 2020
Okay I am going to say something crazy, so bare with me — 2020 doesn’t suck that bad. I know I know, it has been A LOT to deal with and at times we have felt like we can’t, but we have. 2020 is that ultimate lesson we’ve all been waiting for. Seriously, think back to all the bad that has happened this year and now look at where you are at. YOU got through all of those crappy days when you thought you couldn’t do it anymore.
Trust me, my 2020 has been nothing short of crappy along with the rest of you. We have lost SO many great people this year. We live in constant stress and worry over Covid-19. Our lives were constantly changed with online everything and masks every day. We just ended one of the most stressful presidential elections to date. You get the picture; 2020 was nothing short of a whirlwind. So here we are, November of 2020 looking towards the holidays. You made it here. I know in times like these we feel hopeless and wonder where God is in the midst of all of this, but when you realize all you’ve learned you’ll see God right there along side of you each day.
When 2020 started I was still crying over a frat boy and having way too much fun on the weekends. When Covid hit I was stuck at home going through sophomore slaughter online, I lost my job (somewhat), and I had no social connection. I crawled into a deep hole of depression with no idea how to get out. Then my dad started taking me on walks. Every day me and him took these long walks and just talked about life. On these walks, the world seemed to stop turning and for a moment I could breathe again. Our walks turned into adventure with my mom and my siblings. We took on different metro parks enjoying the beauty of the world and time spent with each other.
I moved out of my parents house for the first time and in with some amazing girls. I had a new sense of freedom which led to some poor decision making on my part. In that poor decision making I realized how incredible my new friends are. I mean they would literally carry me on their backs to keep me safe. I found my person. I found my bridesmaids. Speaking of bridesmaids, I got to stand next to my sister as a maid of honor as she married the love of her life. We pulled off an amazing wedding in the middle of all of this madness. I started school again and it was a lot harder than I expected. I am now in week 12 out of 14. I am almost done with one of the most draining and difficult semesters of my life, and I did it on my own.
So I now have two new brothers who I love like any of my other siblings. I watched one my brothers lose someone they love suddenly and unexpectedly. It broke my heart to see him so broken. In his loss, I realized how lucky I am to still have my entire family — not everyone is so lucky. But most importantly, I learned to value each day. No matter how bad it gets, you get to see another day. God wakes you up each morning for a reason. Live each day like it’s your last, and find a reason to be thankful. You need to open your heart to love, show others compassion, and be willing to forgive. Don’t ever forget that you have a purpose, and I promise you will see that 2020 wasn’t all that bad. Each night before bed when I write down my prayers I thank God for giving me another day to live. When I began doing that, my outlook on life became a lot brighter.